After my first week at work and it being a year an half since Danielle died, its been a very stressful week and am i glad its over....YES!!!
After an emotional day on Wednesday i could not understand why this had to happen to me and my family. I had little hope that day, little hope that my life will ever be good and worth living again! To hurt as much as i do and still have to get up every morning is really hard. I cant even begin to explain the major stress and torment it has given me.
Another 6 months now till the BLACK day and am already counting down to the morning i wake up and no its been 2 years since i held, kissed and told her i love her.
18 months since we last spoke and oh how i wish it was just 18 seconds, i always thought if i could write to u and u could read it id have lots to say but i actually dont all i want is to hold u and most of all tell you i love you! This has broken my heart big time and i dont no how i am going to live the rest of my life with this massive gap i have.
I so wish you where hear with me to share the joys and the lows of my life and my future.
Your my sister and my best friend and i have very happy memories of us growing up, i new you for an amazing 19 years and i cherish every single second i had with you and i will remember the fun and silly things we did together like when on holiday and i fell calling it the airoplane :) i remmber to this day you laughing so much about it even tho i cried haha!!
Also, i will remember the sad and angry times we shared cause as sisters there was many, and every sister goes through this.
Untill we meet again,